strangers

i think i've been getting shy lately, not as extroverted as i used to be. i used to be able to talk to strangers/people i barely knew quite comfortably, but now i feel that i've sort of lost this social ability of mine (which might not necessarily be a bad thing). i saw this girl in lecture today, in my social psych class. today was the last lecture, but i've seen her before actually, just never really noticed her till today. i think it may be because we always sat in the same general area: left side, somewhere halfway down from the top, near the middle of the row. i never really got a good look at her face (i try not to get in the habit of blatantly checking people out in class, it seems kinda rude actually), but today i noticed her.

she was in the row right in front of mine, about three chairs to my left, and i wanted to to ask her something. i tried to muster up the courage to say something, to just ask her...(i mean the worst thing that could happen is that she'd say no, and i'd have to face getting rejected, but that's not that bad is it?), but i couldn't do it. why? i have no clue. why couldn't i do it? it's not like i would've been doing something like that for the first time, but why couldn't i do it? it's such a simple task...just open your mouth and say it stupid! but no...i chose to stay silent.

*sigh*...like i said, i'd never noticed her before, not until today. she had something today that she didn't have before, something that got my attention. i could hear it, i could see it, i could almost even taste it! this girl, this stranger that i'd never spoken to, she had something that i wanted, and all i had to do was take a chance and ask her! but i chickened out....and now i'll never know if she would've given me a piece of her skor bar. =(

well, to end the day off on a positive note, i DID decide to overcome this feeling of not being able to talk to strangers anymore, and i managed to talk to some dude i never met (i think he's new in town), although it was only a very brief conversation, and now that i think about it...it didn't end off all that great either...but the point is, i managed to overcome my shyness and i talked to the dude! now what did this conversation look like? well, unlike the previous FAILURE you just read, this time you can have some visuals! meet: the immigrant